Happy First Monthsary, My Lila ✦

Sometimes I wonder how one person can become such a huge part of another person's world without even realizing it at first.

Somehow, you became part of my everyday thoughts, my random smiles, my little stories, my plans, and even the quiet moments when I'm doing absolutely nothing.

And now, when I imagine my future, it feels strange to picture it without you somewhere in it.

You have become someone I don't just want beside me during the happiest moments. You're someone I want beside me during the ordinary days too.

I want the mornings when we're both tired. The nights when we don't know what to talk about. The random little arguments. The silly jokes that only we understand. The days when everything feels perfect, and even the days when life feels a little heavier than usual.

I don't want to love you only when everything is easy.

I want to love you when we're both learning, when we're both changing, and when we don't always know what we're doing.

I want to know every version of you that life brings out. I want to meet the girl you are today, the woman you will become years from now, and every version of you in between.

And no matter how much you grow, I hope you always know that you never have to become someone else just to deserve my love.

I want you exactly as you are, with your little habits, your random moods, your funny side, your stubborn moments, your soft heart, and all the things that make you uniquely you.

There are so many things about you that I don't think I'll ever be able to properly explain.

Sometimes it's something as simple as seeing your name appear on my screen and immediately feeling a little happier.

Sometimes it's remembering something you said days ago and suddenly smiling to myself.

Sometimes it's just knowing that somewhere in this world, there is a person I love this much, and that person is you.

I don't need every moment with you to be something extraordinary.

Honestly, some of my favorite moments are probably going to be the ones that nobody else would think are special at all.

And that's one of the things I love most about us. ♡

I want the kind of love where we can grow old and still laugh at the same stupid jokes.

The kind where we can sit beside each other without saying anything and still feel completely comfortable.

The kind where we can look back at our younger selves and realize how far we've come.

I want to collect years with you. Not just memories, but years.

I want birthdays, holidays, random weekends, late-night conversations, unexpected adventures, quiet afternoons, little celebrations, and countless ordinary days that eventually become the life we built together.

And if there ever comes a time when you doubt yourself, I hope you remember that there is someone who sees so much more in you than you sometimes see in yourself.

I hope I can be the person who reminds you of your worth when you forget it.

I want to celebrate you when you're proud of yourself, encourage you when you're scared, listen when you need to let everything out, and sit quietly beside you when words aren't what you need.

I won't always know exactly what to say or exactly how to fix things, but I promise that I will always try to understand you instead of simply trying to win an argument.

I know we're not perfect, and I don't want us to pretend that we are.

We'll misunderstand each other sometimes. We'll get annoyed. We'll have moments where one of us needs space and moments where one of us needs a little extra love.

There will probably be days when we don't completely agree.

But I hope that through all of those things, we never forget that we're on the same side.

I don't want disagreements to become reasons for us to give up.

I want them to become opportunities for us to understand each other better, communicate better, and learn how to love each other in ways that actually matter.

I want to be someone you can come home to, not just physically, but emotionally.

Someone you can tell your good news to before anyone else.

Someone you can send the most random thought to without worrying that it sounds stupid.

Someone you can cry in front of without feeling embarrassed.

Someone you can celebrate with when something you've worked hard for finally happens.

I want to know about the little things that happen in your day, even the things you think aren't important, because if they happened to you, then they're important to me.

I also want to make you laugh for as long as I possibly can.

I want us to have those moments where we're laughing so much that neither of us can even remember what started it.

I want inside jokes that make absolutely no sense to anyone else.

I want silly pictures, random messages, terrible jokes, spontaneous plans, and memories that we'll eventually look back on and say, "Why were we like that?"

I want a relationship that feels safe enough to be serious but playful enough to never lose its happiness.

And when I say I want a future with you, I don't mean that I expect our future to be perfect.

I can't promise that nothing will ever go wrong.

Instead, I promise that I want to experience whatever our future becomes with you.

If life gives us beautiful days, I want to enjoy them with you.

If life gives us difficult days, I want to face them with you.

If our plans change, we'll make new ones. If we get lost, we'll figure out where to go next.

I don't need to know exactly what every chapter looks like yet.

I'm just grateful that when I think about turning the page, you're the person I hope is still there.

One day, I hope we'll look back at this time in our lives and smile at how young we were, how much we were still learning, and how we somehow managed to find something worth protecting.

I hope we'll remember the conversations that lasted way too long, the little promises we made, the moments we thought we'd never forget, and all the tiny things that slowly turned into a lifetime of memories.

If I could give you one promise, it wouldn't be that nothing will ever go wrong.

Instead, I promise that I will keep choosing you.

I'll choose you when things are exciting and when they're boring.

I'll choose you when we're laughing and when we're frustrated.

I'll choose you when the future feels clear and when neither of us knows what comes next.

I'll choose to listen, to understand, to apologize when I'm wrong, to forgive when forgiveness is needed, and to keep learning how to love you better.

I want to keep choosing us.
I want to keep choosing you. ♡

I promise to keep learning you.

Not just the things you show everyone, but the little things that make you who you are. The things that make you laugh, the things that make you nervous, the things that make you excited, the things that make you quiet, and the things you sometimes don't know how to explain.

I promise to listen to you.

Even when you repeat yourself. Even when you're talking about something random. Even when you just need someone to hear you and you don't need a solution.

I promise to celebrate you.

Your achievements, your little wins, your progress, your dreams, and even the things you don't think are worth celebrating. If you're proud of yourself, I want to be proud with you.

I promise to remind you that you are loved when you forget.

Kahit ilang beses mo pa kailangan marinig, I'll tell you again. I'll reassure you again. I'll remind you again that you're important to me.

I promise to keep making an effort.

I don't want my love to only exist as words on a screen. I want you to feel it through the way I treat you, the way I listen, the way I care, and the way I continue choosing you.

I promise that when things aren't easy, I'll remember that we're on the same team.

We might not always understand each other immediately, but I want us to keep communicating until we do.

Most importantly, I promise that I don't want to stop growing with you.

This is only our first month.

There are still so many versions of ourselves that we haven't met yet.

And I want to meet them with you.